Lilly Jenson on Life

LJ on ... being angry

Wednesday, 8 October 2008

I can't believe what happened between Corey and Josh yesterday. I'm so angry!!!! I can't believe Corey went for Josh like that, I'm so so so upset with him! After being so sympathetic towards him as well! I'm so upset, I don't know what to do, I mean I really want to go and see Josh to apologise now - well, I need to - but he's not going to want to speak to me now. And it's going to seem like I'm just there to give him sympathy, not because I really want to be...

I'm so upset. I made Corey drop me straight home last night, so I've been in the flat all night but haven't been able to sleep. I'm sure everyone's talking about it but I haven't seen the outside world yet this morning so no-ones asked me about it and I haven't heard whether Josh is okay or not. He was all cut up and looked to be in loads of pain yesterday. I feel so awful.

I don't even know why I was so surprised to see Josh there yesterday, I just hadn't thought about it and connected him to the rugby try-outs, even though he's in Hallam's first rugby team. I should have realised but I've been so preoccupied with everything... so I was really surprised when I saw him and he looked surprised to. I told him Corey was my brother - something to get me one over on Summer FS clearly, by the look on her face - and Corey was singing Josh's praises saying that he had definitely been given the slot because of how amazing he was. I was kind of happy for Josh, even though I was so mad with him... anyway it was really awkward between us both, then Corey came over and asked how we knew each other... and I was such a bitch, I should have known what would happen when I told Corey Josh was the one who messed me around... and then suddenly Josh was in a heap on the floor and argh I feel so sick thinking about it.

I have to go and talk to him.